I started blogging over a decade ago, and I’ve always written about my beliefs and how they’ve changed. In one of my early posts, “When the Heart Forces a Smile,” I talked about how my mom taught me forced smiling when I felt upsetting, intense emotions. I didn’t identify this as a form of controlling… Continue reading Non-toxic Positivity
Today I did the dishes sitting down, across the course of a few hours, taking breaks between sittings. I did this because I’ve been trying to listen to my body when it needs a break or to not stand. I also did it because yesterday I saw a post saying that refusing to sit down… Continue reading The Rebellious Act of Listening to My Body
Every month, I make one paycheck through Patreon. This is to support me and my work as a writer. My number of supporters has fluctuated widely over the years. At this point, I am making less than what I need to pay my half of rent. I’ve been trying to raise money as needed throughout… Continue reading Patreon and Substack Discounts
I really appreciate every person that takes the time to visit my blog. It’s 2023, and there are thousands of posts and ads fighting for your attention each day. The fact that you think of my name and either type it into your browser or fight past the noise of your email inbox to click… Continue reading Beginning Again
When I was growing up, my mom expected us to do school every weekday. Although this was the goal, it rarely happened. There were a lot of obstacles in the way of getting to the point where we could get started. In theory, we’d clean up after breakfast and, with the floors swept and the… Continue reading Learning Amidst Chaos
Today I turn 31. My day began with refilling my medication container. It has 28 compartments, so a week’s worth of taking meds four times a day. Getting medicated for my mental illnesses is among the best decisions I’ve ever made. I have an excellent psychiatrist who has worked with me over the past couple… Continue reading Birthday Post 9
For the first few days of June, we scrambled to gather up our belongings and get them into storage. From there, we put in a lot of work researching and inquiring on finding a place to live. We’d already done that part weeks prior, but the place we originally chose wasn’t returning our calls. The… Continue reading Hotel Life
This month has been extremely stressful. As I’ve explained over on Patreon and GoFundMe, we’ve been on the move because our previous living situation was unsafe. I didn’t feel like I could blog about what was going on until we cut off ties. 11 days ago, we moved into a hotel and put most of… Continue reading We Haven’t Moved Into a New Place Yet
I struggle a great deal with being human. For many years, I bristled at people who said to me, “you’re a human,” wondering what on earth they meant. People go through life with a wide range of definitions for humanness. As a young child, I was taught that to be human was to be flawed.… Continue reading Doing Enough
Multiple people have asked me if I’ll be watching the Amazon Prime docuseries that was released at the beginning of this month. It’s called “Shiny Happy People: Duggar Family Secrets”. It won’t be informative for me. It will just be triggering. No surprises here. Frankly, there shouldn’t be any surprises for the rest of you,… Continue reading Why I Won’t Be Watching “Shiny Happy People”