The past year has been filled with an indescribable amount of both horror and conflict. At this time a year ago, I was not informed about the so-called “war” between Israel and Palestine. As a white American who is still unpacking the falsehoods I was taught about colonization, I still have so much to learn.… Continue reading I Was Wrong About October 7th
The tug-of-war that takes place in my psyche now is that in relation to my trauma, I’m simultaneously obsessed and avoidant. I avoid the triggers because it’s painful, even detrimental, to revisit the traumatic memories.
“I’m learning the ropesI’m learning to copeI’m learning that more of us got hella demons than got any hope.” -Xiuhtezcatl I’ve been in and out of therapy for over a decade, but I didn’t really understand what it means to put my mental health first until a few years ago. I was going in circles… Continue reading Coping Skills
In 2015, I started a Patreon and announced that I was beginning work on a memoir about growing up in a large (or should I say gigantic?) Christian, conservative family. I am the third oldest child of 16 children, and while most of my siblings would end up getting some primary schooling, two of us… Continue reading What’s Going on with the Memoir?
I hear you don’t like itI don’t care if you don’t…You can burn the skin I live inBut you cannot burn the witch away-Aurora, The Devil is Human It’s taken twelve years to record my thoughts on milestones ten times. For me, a birthday is a chance to reflect on how life changes as it… Continue reading Birthday Post 10
A reflection on what self-compassion means.
Two days until moving day! We take off on the 12th and there seems to be so much left to do, but we’re making good progress! We are so grateful to everyone who has helped spread the word, donate, and offer other kinds of support. We would be nowhere without you. One supporter was kind… Continue reading Two More Days
Hey everyone, I’m feeling pretty scattered in the process of trying to write updates across seven different platforms (Facebook/Twitter/Instagram/Patreon/Substack/GoFundMe/Blog), so I’m going to just post the same thing on all of them today. We leave the state in just 13 days – in the afternoon on the 12th of July – and we are stressed… Continue reading Limited Space for Keepsakes
It feels profoundly selfish to be constantly in need. It might seem helpful to make comparisons – there are people worse off, there are people better off. Yet the fact remains that each day contains necessity. We all need food and a place to sleep. People who’ve always had their basic needs met see wisdom… Continue reading Necessity and Hope
We are in the midst of a very busy time. I haven’t been updating much because my energy is primarily going toward physically demanding tasks. Ryan (now spelled with one “n” instead of two) and I have been dividing up the labor as evenly as possible. Because I’m more physically capable of doing things, he’s… Continue reading 30 Days Until We Move!
