Today I did the dishes sitting down, across the course of a few hours, taking breaks between sittings. I did this because I’ve been trying to listen to my body when it needs a break or to not stand. I also did it because yesterday I saw a post saying that refusing to sit down… Continue reading The Rebellious Act of Listening to My Body
Every month, I make one paycheck through Patreon. This is to support me and my work as a writer. My number of supporters has fluctuated widely over the years. At this point, I am making less than what I need to pay my half of rent. I’ve been trying to raise money as needed throughout… Continue reading Patreon and Substack Discounts
When I was growing up, my mom expected us to do school every weekday. Although this was the goal, it rarely happened. There were a lot of obstacles in the way of getting to the point where we could get started. In theory, we’d clean up after breakfast and, with the floors swept and the… Continue reading Learning Amidst Chaos
Today I turn 31. My day began with refilling my medication container. It has 28 compartments, so a week’s worth of taking meds four times a day. Getting medicated for my mental illnesses is among the best decisions I’ve ever made. I have an excellent psychiatrist who has worked with me over the past couple… Continue reading Birthday Post 9
For the first few days of June, we scrambled to gather up our belongings and get them into storage. From there, we put in a lot of work researching and inquiring on finding a place to live. We’d already done that part weeks prior, but the place we originally chose wasn’t returning our calls. The… Continue reading Hotel Life
This month has been extremely stressful. As I’ve explained over on Patreon and GoFundMe, we’ve been on the move because our previous living situation was unsafe. I didn’t feel like I could blog about what was going on until we cut off ties. 11 days ago, we moved into a hotel and put most of… Continue reading We Haven’t Moved Into a New Place Yet
Multiple people have asked me if I’ll be watching the Amazon Prime docuseries that was released at the beginning of this month. It’s called “Shiny Happy People: Duggar Family Secrets”. It won’t be informative for me. It will just be triggering. No surprises here. Frankly, there shouldn’t be any surprises for the rest of you,… Continue reading Why I Won’t Be Watching “Shiny Happy People”
This post was last updated 5/23/2023. Because my partner and I are moving soon, I have a lot of paintings to pack up. Another option, however, is I can mail them out…if anyone is interested in buying them. Here are some details. All paintings are in acrylic. I am open to offers, and will negotiate… Continue reading My Paintings Are Available for Sale!
Content warning: This post discusses childhood trauma, death, and the Holocaust.“I’ve been born for some timeAnd I’ve got death on my mind…All we ever had is hungerAll we never get is powerWould you ever feed each other?” -Aurora, Hunger In a recent email, one of my readers told me that it seems things are not… Continue reading Endings Are Rarely Happy
I very much do not want to do any of the things required of me right now. I want to just sit in my feelings, and those feelings are full of grief. It’s both heart-wrenching despair and late-morning grumpiness. It’s wanting comfort, even though no amount of comfort comes close to reaching these depths. My… Continue reading URGENT: We Have to Move Because of Toxic Mold