Some say the end is near Some say we’ll see Armageddon soon I certainly hope we will I sure could use a vacation from this Bullshit three-ring circus sideshow I was raised to believe in the end of the world. I read the Left Behind books with eagerness, and spent countless hours fantasizing about what… Continue reading A Different Apocalypse
Wrote this poem a few days ago. It’s very raw, but I was encouraged to share it with the world. The emotions I’m feeling aren’t ones that I know any song for Compassion for my abuser Understanding for the one who hurt me Simultaneous anger and release from pain passed on You used your pain… Continue reading (s)Mother
This video took a long time to put together, but I’m really proud of how it turned out. Please leave a comment and let me know what you think!
It’s been four years since I’ve updated my YouTube channel, and I’m curious to know who would be interested if I returned. I have a few ideas for videos, like talking about why I left religion, what it’s like to deal with depression and anxiety, etc. If I were to make videos again, what questions… Continue reading YouTube?
It’s been over seven weeks since I last blogged, and every day I feel guilty for it. While I know that the perfect is the enemy of the good, I often visualize and imagine how excellent my writing would be, if only I could get my mind to clear. But my mind has not been… Continue reading Prioritizing Recovery
I’m working harder than ever before, and this website doesn’t show it. The concepts I’m delving into are so intense, I wonder if I can blog about them. Here’s an excerpt: You prepared a table before me in the presence of my enemies. Then we broke bread together, and they washed my feet and asked… Continue reading An Infinite Task
This post was originally uploaded on July 31, 2015. It was re-uploaded as part of the Archive Restoration Project. “I hold on to the notionthat I just wasn’t born to dieburied beneath the motion of lifeI never stopped to question whyI’m still sticking to the notionThere is a bigger story left to tellIn the lowest… Continue reading Losing Grip on Eternity, Part 5: Finding Purpose
This post was originally published on July 30, 2015. It was re-uploaded as part of the Archive Restoration Project. “Romeo and JulietAre together in eternity.We can be like they are.” –Blue Oyster Cult, Don’t Fear the Reaper To the surprise of many people, I never read Rob Bell’s Love Wins until this year. When I… Continue reading Losing Grip on Eternity, Part 4: Feeling Infinite
This post was originally posted on July 29, 2015. It was re-uploaded as part of the Archive Restoration Project. “Imagining an afterlife can tend to mend a broken heart,And with someone dead, it’s a way of coping with loss,But I don’t need you out there somewhere if I have you in my thoughts.” –Eyedea, Hay Fever How… Continue reading Losing grip on eternity, Part 3: Grief and Finality
Trigger warnings: Christian martyr culture, child abuse, suicidal ideation This piece is being re-uploaded as part of the archive restoration project. It was originally published in November 2014. “Maybe I’m mistaken, expecting you to fight Or maybe I’m just crazy, I don’t know wrong from right But while I am still living, I’ve just got… Continue reading Freeing Self-Deceived Fundamentalists