For the first few days of June, we scrambled to gather up our belongings and get them into storage. From there, we put in a lot of work researching and inquiring on finding a place to live. We’d already done that part weeks prior, but the place we originally chose wasn’t returning our calls. The… Continue reading Hotel Life
This month has been extremely stressful. As I’ve explained over on Patreon and GoFundMe, we’ve been on the move because our previous living situation was unsafe. I didn’t feel like I could blog about what was going on until we cut off ties. 11 days ago, we moved into a hotel and put most of… Continue reading We Haven’t Moved Into a New Place Yet
I struggle a great deal with being human. For many years, I bristled at people who said to me, “you’re a human,” wondering what on earth they meant. People go through life with a wide range of definitions for humanness. As a young child, I was taught that to be human was to be flawed.… Continue reading Doing Enough
Multiple people have asked me if I’ll be watching the Amazon Prime docuseries that was released at the beginning of this month. It’s called “Shiny Happy People: Duggar Family Secrets”. It won’t be informative for me. It will just be triggering. No surprises here. Frankly, there shouldn’t be any surprises for the rest of you,… Continue reading Why I Won’t Be Watching “Shiny Happy People”
This post was last updated 5/23/2023. Because my partner and I are moving soon, I have a lot of paintings to pack up. Another option, however, is I can mail them out…if anyone is interested in buying them. Here are some details. All paintings are in acrylic. I am open to offers, and will negotiate… Continue reading My Paintings Are Available for Sale!
This post originally appeared on Substack on May 17, 2023. I’ve had a blog for over ten years, and I never feel like I update it often enough. This is a place for shorter musings. Just tidbits, musings, and of course music references. Above is a painting by Artemis Stardust. It is an attempt to… Continue reading Scattering Star Stuff into the Void
Content warning: This post discusses childhood trauma, death, and the Holocaust.“I’ve been born for some timeAnd I’ve got death on my mind…All we ever had is hungerAll we never get is powerWould you ever feed each other?” -Aurora, Hunger In a recent email, one of my readers told me that it seems things are not… Continue reading Endings Are Rarely Happy
I very much do not want to do any of the things required of me right now. I want to just sit in my feelings, and those feelings are full of grief. It’s both heart-wrenching despair and late-morning grumpiness. It’s wanting comfort, even though no amount of comfort comes close to reaching these depths. My… Continue reading URGENT: We Have to Move Because of Toxic Mold
My partner and I eat all our meals in bed. We’ve never made space for a dining room because it’s simply impractical for us. There’s a common misconception that disabled people sit around and do nothing to contribute to society. Nothing could be further from the truth. We are everywhere, creating in spite of barriers… Continue reading Chronic Illness is Exhausting Work
I haven’t written here on the blog all month because I’ve been dealing with a medical emergency with my partner, Ryann. It has taken almost the entire month to figure it out, and we are still waiting on final test results. Here is a more detailed update. Ever since he got Covid-19 in March 2020,… Continue reading Ryann’s Hospitalization and Diagnosis