I’ve just written over 800 words of stream-of-consciousness prose, and it will never see the light of day, thank you very much. Many people are concerned about me right now but this is about the same as it’s always been. By that I mean I’ve always dealt with depression. I used to live in denial… Continue reading Creative Flow (Futility Revisited)
Sometimes you’ve just got to look at an empty page without anything particular in mind. I chose not to offer up my attention to the debates last night, and I think I am better off mentally for it, based on all of your reactions. We watched Brave and A Bug’s Life back to back while… Continue reading Breaking Perfectionism
Every night, I get up at least twice in the night to bring meals to my partner. He is too disabled now to get his own food from the kitchen. We have a flight of carpeted stairs separating our bedroom from the kitchen and going down them gives him chest pain and a rapid heart… Continue reading Seeking a Home in the Midst of Collapse
This happened last week, but I’m still thinking about it. The trick the president is trying to pull is outdoing himself constantly so each shock makes the previous one seem mild by comparison. How can one consider that he’s trying to control how children see the world’s biggest industrial-colonial-prison system, when it was followed up… Continue reading My Patriotic Education
Content Warning: This article discusses police brutality, internet censorship, and near-term human extinction. Not sure where to begin after a day like yesterday. The onslaught of news was overwhelming. Later in the day, it became apparent to me at last that our internet is being censored. The omissions were eerie. For a little while, the… Continue reading (Almost) Hopeless
Disclaimer: this is not an attack on religion or religious people for being religious. It’s just my thoughts about MY former faith and how I interpreted it then and now. Seven billion lives to punishThis race will pay for their avariceThe odious destroyersLeading our lives towards exileThe fickle breed will purge themselves…Seven billion people will… Continue reading I’m not saying religion sucks, but it hurt me, okay
Today to procrastinate on writing my daily blog post, I’m updating my page about the themes I’ll be covering in my memoir. People online have been asking if I’m still writing it, and the short answer is I’m working on it very very slowly. The reason for this is that I’m quite young and haven’t… Continue reading Therapeutic Creativity
Writing is a real fight. I’ve been at it for nearly five hours, and I’m starting again with nothing. The blog as a medium is one that I was introduced to through my dad, who wanted to put every details of our family’s life onto his blog for many years of my childhood. When I… Continue reading Writing Doubts
How do I sit still while the planet is dying?The bees are deadThe big boss is up in his towerMy face is redYelling, but there’s soundproof glass around himHe’s counting all the mountains of money around himHow would you feel if you got cheated out ofGrowing up?You’re born into a dying world,Its time is upThis… Continue reading Everything (Sucks)
I spend a lot of my time explaining myself to people who don’t know what it’s like to be truly poor. In many ways, I myself do not know what it is like to experience extreme poverty. What I know is that it is terrifying and traumatizing to be on the edge of not having… Continue reading The Urgency-Sustainability Problem of Poverty